We give great honor to those who endure under suffering. For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance. You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end, for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy. James 5:11
So . . . . . . . . you finally come to the conclusion you need to leave your abusive church and you leave. The physical church is left behind with all its people, you close that chapter of your life emotionally and spiritually, and try to move on. You have left. But now what? Where do you go from here? What do you do with that residue of yuckiness that is in your brain that didn't get left behind in your old church? Where does that junk go?
This is the reality that many of us have faced or are going through. Closing the figurative door behind you does not mean there are not issues to be worked out emotionally and spiritually. I received this heart-felt e-mail from blog reader, Tammy, who is in that place:
Lately, I am not so much hurt as I am angry. Because I am now the "one with problems"!? However, I went to one church for 10 years and then started "church shopping" and ended up at the abusive church for 2 years. So, they can't say I'm going around from church to church and have "problems". AND, just recently, after a friends wedding, I realized something too. I was looking at a picture taken of a group of 5 of us women at the wedding...I realized we were ALL on that church's prayer team...AND, all of us had left!!! In fact, it was two other ladies that actually started questioning and left before I did?!?!
At this point with so much anger...I sometimes have no clue what to do. I have been working a little bit with a counselor, but sometimes I feel like it is a year later and I am no farther along with anger and being hurt. It seems like I still think about it almost daily and want to "warn" people about the pastor (the controlling pastor) and the phoniness.
If you have been in this place, what has helped you? How have you dealt with this difficult part of the healing journey?
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